Babymoon Flutters

Ivan and I are on our much deserved babymoon.  It's been so great relaxing here on Oahu.  Before our trip I was a little worried that I wasn't feeling him at all.  "Flutters" or "butterflies" is what everyone would told me it would feel like.  As you know I am very impatient (working on that).  The last couple of days I have been feeling the actual flutters!   I have been feeling him more at night when I'm winding down.  Last night when we were lying down I put Eye's hand on my belly.  I took several deep breaths saying in my head, "Okay baby, move for Daddy,"  and HE DID!!!  The look on Ivan's face was priceless.  It was a look of "Wow!!!" and "Oh sh*t this is real!"  Then he went to my belly and started talking to the baby.  He loved the sound of Daddy' s voice!  He actually kicked harder.  It was such an amazing moment to have with Eye.  I actually felt like it was the first time the  3 of us connected, it was amazing.

Change is here.

It feels good to be on Oahu on the day our first African-American president is sworn into office.  Today we woke up at 6:30 am to watch history in the making.  I cried as he walked down the hallway.  I cried when he was getting sworn in.   I couldn't help but think to myself,  "What is Bush thinking right at this moment?"  Then I began to think about change.  Change is here.  It is present on this day and will be present in these next years.  Change in our government, change in my body,  change in my husband, change in our relationship, change in my life period.   I'm ready for change, in all change that is coming.   

My Teachers

I am so thankful for these women in my life who will guide me 

through my journey.

5 Months!

Okay NOW you have to see the bump.  We went to Brian Head, Utah for New Years and when I came back I head a belly!   It happened over just 3 days.  Today I am 20 weeks and 1 day.  I went for my check up and heard the baby's heart beat.  The doctor said the heart is strong and that I am at the perfect weight for where I am in my pregnancy.   I have gained 10 pounds.  I can definitely feel the weight on me but I really don't mind it.  It feels good.   I feel pregnant now and  I absolutely love it.   Now that the show is done I have been doing more pilates, but I am modifying everything that I do. The only thing that is annoying is that I think I am beginning to have allergies!  Ugh!  I have a runny nose and I'm sneezing all the time.  Not sure if it's the wind, the weather or just dusty Vegas.  They say your more prone to runny noses when your preggers since there is a lot more blood and hormones in your body. This Friday I have another big ultrasound.  Not sure if I want to do the 3-D or 4-D.  I kinda want to be surprised when I see him for the first time since we already know that he's a boy.  Next week Ivan and I go to Hawaii for 3 weeks.  I can't wait!  Hmmmm maybe I need to buy a new bathing suit for my new body.

One more week!

Stomp Out Loud is going on hiatus on January 4th.  We are currently searching for a new space somewhere on the strip that will become our new home.  I can't believe I only have one more week left!  I will be 19 weeks on Monday and by the time we finish I will be exactly 5 months.  It kinda worked out perfectly.   I definitely feel pregnant while performing.  Even though I am not doing a whole lot in the show, I can feel the weight of the baby in my belly.  I don't move so quickly and I am really being careful moving around the set.   My belly is popping out more which makes me extra sensitive while performing.  I still feel good.  I plan on finishing our last week.  Everybody in the cast has been great.  They all have been covering my parts that I can't do.  I feel like everyone is looking after me.  (And looking at my big boobs)   I'm really looking forward to the break we are going to have.  I'm kinda of nervous about what I'm going to do for income, but I can collect unemployment which is comforting.   Change is coming and I can feel it in my body and in my life.  I feel excited, nervous, anxious and calm all at the same time.  I look forward to this change.  Change is good. 

Drum roll please...

It's a boy!!!!   This past week has been such a roller coaster!!!  First off one of my pregnancy test called AFP came back "abnormal".  (Turns out that test usually comes back abnormal even though there is nothing wrong)  My OB suggested I see a perinatal specialist to possibly get an amniocentesis  since I was "high risk."  To make a loong story short I only had .25 percent chance of my baby having Down Syndrome, so I decided not to go ahead with the amnio. Why risk having a miscarriage when there is a 99.75 percent chance my baby is perfectly fine.  I feel so much better now that we saw the baby.  It was such a trip to see inside the boy!  His heart, his hands, his aorta, his hip bones, his brain, his lips and his pee pee ...it was soooo amazing. It's finally feeling real.  Eye was tripping out.  He said he was trying hard not to loose it in the room.  The ultrasound technician was great and she said our baby looks perfect.  Soooo relieved.  I am so thankful also for my wonderful girlfriends who calmed me down those 2 days.  Thank you Mish, Elo, and Birdie.  

Both Ivan and I had dreams that it was a boy.  I am just so thankful that he has all his parts and that so far he is healthy.  As for names we haven't even started.  Maybe we'll get inspired when we go to Hawaii in January! 

Check out the boy's hand on his forehead.  He looks like he's posing!

4 Months!

Can you see it?   Can you see my bump?    Okay if you need a magnifying glass to see my bump then look at the size of my rack!!   Well I can see a little bump....and so can Eye and my close friends at work who've seen me naked in the dressing room for the past 2 years.  I look at it about 100 times a day to see if it's getting bigger.  I WANT it to get bigger.   Come on you can see it right?????   

 Yesterday I went to the OB and he said that the reason I'm not showing yet is because my abs are strong.  (go pilates!)  I guess that's a good thing.  I've gained 2 pounds since my last visit so I now weigh 130 pounds.  Next week Wednesday I go for the big ultrasound where they take measurements of the fetus.   I have to drink 32 oz. of water an hour before and I can't pee!  That sounds like an eternity to me since I seem to pee every 5 minutes.  Hopefully if fetus is in a good position we can see the sex.   Wahine or Kane?  I really don't care.  I just want a healthy baby.

Speaking of healthy babies, my good friend just gave birth to a beautiful boy.  His name is Makai.  I loove that name and he is sooo precious.  I saw him for the first time yesterday and I kept saying, " I can't believe your in this world already!"   For me it seemed like just yesterday Birdie told me she was pregnant.   It seems so surreal that what's growing inside me is actually going to come out and be in this world!