I have always loved getting a tree and decorating it. It just brings back so many great childhood memories. I have a toddler who LOVES balls. How do I have the perfect pretty Christmas tree that isn't bald on the bottom or surrounded by a barricade? I decided to take my clients advice and get the Charlie Brown Christmas tree. I LOVE IT! It is the cuuuuuutest tree ever. I could not NOT get a tree. I finally feel like it's Christmas in my house. Thanks Charlie.
Last night was the first time Eye and I spent the night away from Nainoa. Gasp!! I can't believe I actually did it! Eye had a Dan Band gig at the Mirage Hotel. Even though he is local he still got a hotel room. It was perfect because the hotel was only 15 minutes away from home.
Even though I have seen Dan's show a million times I really wanted to see the show this time because a very good friend of mine "Uncle Bim," as Nainoa says was doing back up for the very first time. I wanted to show my support to my friend and it just seemed like a fun night out.
Jim & Gene
I really wanted to take Nainoa to sound check so he can see Uncle Dan and Uncle Bim do their thing. We've been listening to Dan's Christmas album at home and Nainoa loves it. (I talk really loud over the inappropriate words)
Uncle Dan and Nainoa
Nainoa wanted to hold Uncle Dan's and Dadda's hand.
When we got to sound check Nainoa wanted to play with all the props especially the neon drum sticks. I had to pry him off stage. Thank goodness there wasn't a melt down. As soon as the music started he danced and jumped around. He loved all the lights. He was so good through out the whole sound check. All the guys loved enteraining Nainoa. He had so much fun and I had fun watching him.
Soundcheck at the Mirage.
After sound check was over we brought Nainoa home and put him down to bed. It was not easy. Over stimulation, over tired and a late bed time was not a good combination. After a lot a crying he finally went to bed. I started to question whether it was a good idea to leave him over night after such an ordeal. Eye was supportive and said it was my choice since I have never left him over night. The only thing I was worried about was the 3 am brrrmmm brrmmm. Was he going freak out when I'm not there to give him comfort? Better question, was I going to freak out? We both decided that we would make a decide after the night was over. The Lolos said to enjoy the night and either way they were fine with sleeping with the Nainoa.
The gig was great. Dan was funny and Jim was awesome. You couldn't even tell Jim had never performed with Dan. When everyone else decided to go to sleep it was 2:00 am. We had a great time. Do we go home? Do we spend the night at the hotel? Will Nainoa be alright when he gets up at 3:00 am without brrrmm brrmm? Will I be okay without him? After going back and forth I decided to stay. It was close enough that if something did happen we would be home in 15 minutes. I deserved a night out with my husband. Once I committed I was fine. I had faith in my parents to deal with Nainoa. After all they did raise 3 kids. I didn't sleep very well. I woke up every hour thinking I was home. We left the hotel at 7:45 am. I didn't even call to tell the Lolos we were on our way home. When I got home Nainoa's face lit up and he screamed, "Mammaaaa!!!!" Phhheewww. I won't bore you with the full run down of Nainoa's night. In a nut shell he did wake up and call for me at 3:00 am. Lolo transferred him from crib to bed and he slept till 8am. He was totally fine and in the end I was too.
My son rejected me today. My feelings were hurt and I feel like crying just writing about it. Today I came home from being gone all morning and I felt like being close to my son because I missed him. I sat down on the floor he gave me a hug and a kiss and I asked him, "Do you want some brrmm brrmmmm (breastmilk)?" Nainoa replied, "Nope!" Knife in heart. Knife turns right and left. " Are you sure?????" So I whip it out and he suckles for what seemed like a millisecond and said, "Done!" He then walks away from me. I'm speechless, sad and hurt all at the same time. I totally feel rejected. I try to swallow the fact that baby is no longer a baby and he may be starting to self wean. I don't think either of us are ready to completely wean cold turkey. (Although I could do without the 3:00 am sessions) I still love our bonding moments when it is just him and I. I love those moments when he looks up at me so lovingly. Ugh. It's all happening way too fast. World Health Organization recommends to breastfeed for at least 2 years. I really want to make it that far but I'm not sure it will happen. I seriously get sad thinking about how one day soon he won't need me at all. He already doesn't need me to fall asleep at night. So basically we just nurse for nap time and in the wee hours of the morning. Sigh....well at least I have that....for now.
Ever since we got back from L.A. Nainoa has been drumming more and more. It seems as if after he watched Dadda perform in the Pandemonium he is drumming with more energy, passion and intensity. It's exciting yet also terrifying knowing that we have such an influence on these little people.
I took 9 to see Yo Gabba Gabba last night. He had a great time. We've only watched a few videos from their website. He really likes the "I Like To Dance" and "Party In My Tummy" video. All we listen to in the car is Yo Gabba Gabba. Nainoa loves Biz Markie's Beat of the Day on the album so when he came out last night he was so excited. Then when Biz started to sing his hit, "Ohhh bbaaaaabbyy you...." all the parents went crazy. So cool. Since the concert was near his bedtime I thought for sure he would turn to me and say, "Done!" But he was so transfixed. He clapped after each number, even though he only knew half of the songs. He was really good through out the whole concert. I had a great time too. There were times I got even teary watching both kids and parents sing along to all the songs. At the end during their "Goodbye" song a cute 4 year old girl with Yo Gabba Gabba painted on her face started to sob. She was so sad that it was all over. She was genuinely so heartbroken that Tootie, Foofa, Brobee, Plex and Uncle Ahmet (Nainoa thinks DJ Lance Rock is Ahmed) were leaving. I totally started crying for her too. Then I got all emotional. I kept thinking how fortunate I was to give these experiences and also share these experiences with my son. Before the age of 2 he has been to the theater to watch his Dad, played on stage with the cast and now he has watched his first rock concert! What kind of impact will it make on him? Who knows. I'm just thankful that we can have these special moments together.
Nainoa has grown very attached to Aunty Icks (Simmy) since they spent a lot of time together in Miami and in Los Angeles. They adore each other. It's just so sad that Aunty lives all the way in London. Whenever we watch YouTube clips of Pandemonium, he always points and says, "Auntie!!!" We try and Skype as often as we can so he can see her. Thank goodness for video chat!