Friday, February 20, 2009
So I have met with 3 different midwives. Overall they all seemed very professional, very knowledgeable, very passionate on what they do. They all had certain qualities that I wished were rolled up into one midwife. So now I think I'm even more confused. Which one do I choose? Do I wait to talk to my doctor who probably will want to steer me away from a home birth? Then I'll be really really confused! Oh the life of a Pisces, upstream...downstream. I wish I can just have my water birth with my doctor and my midwife at a birthing center. That just doesn't exist here. Unfortunately in the state of Nevada CPM (certified professional midwife) cannot practice in the hospitals, only CNM (certified nurse midwife) can practice at a hospital. But the problem with having a CNM is that they have to follow their OB's practices and orders, so it's like having a regular OB anyways. Sigh...so I guess I just need to to do more research, talk to more people, watch more videos, read more books and soak up all the information so that I can make the best decision. My heart wants a water birth but my head wants a hospital for "just in case". What's nagging me...is it fear? UGH this is SOOO HARD!!!!